Friday, April 18, 2014

Well, there's supposed to be meaning
In every action and thought
But I see another hope
that needs to be crushed.

Thursday, April 17, 2014

I don't like that it's taking way too long to complete this puzzle.

Sunday, April 13, 2014

And this morning
shall lay subdued
to thoughts
that come in hues. 

And in its rays
will one find
the splintering
of a soul, immortal.

(written on the 12th)
And the notes of your music,
oh, musician, draws me
from one trance to another
cycle after cycle.

Do I need a language
to understand you?

Friday, April 11, 2014

I'm slowly being done with attaching sentimental value to tangibles and intangibles. 
I've forgotten what it is like to be in love.
Or, may be, I'm just done with the farce.
How far away is my companion, mate?

Sunday, April 6, 2014

My doubts drown me.
They're my biggest enemy.
But it doesn't happen with everybody.

Wednesday, April 2, 2014

And there is poetry in making dosais and talking about poetry and writing.

Friday, March 28, 2014

And, ha. It all makes sense!

Thursday, March 27, 2014

I act like I am not acting. #ijusthadtosaythis

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Oh, sitarame.
Yen chitirame!

Monday, March 24, 2014

Shiva! Īśvara! Maheśvara!
There's tranquility your name invokes,
in all the movement and chaos -
very much like you!

And in your name,
an eternal trance!

Kadhalikka Neramillai

Kadhalikka neram irrukku,
solla dhaan nazhi illai-o?
alla, thayakkamo?

These eyes
find it hard
to contain
the joy
from a genuine
or limbic center.

And as they beam,
they speak
a thousand

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

oh, tug-a-lug. tug-a-lug, my limbic system!

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Retards. Fucktards. Whatever you want to call them.
Die. Bitches.

Have you experienced something so beautiful that it has made you silent, sad, empty, socially awkward, stammer, stumble and yet you wish it touches your life every single moment like the gentle full-moon night's breeze by a deserted beach?

I have. And I don't think I'll ever get tired of it.
If I were your sea, will you be my sea? #inspiration #yanntiersen

Saturday, March 8, 2014


Accept a wish or compliment gracefully or dismiss them profusely.

Thursday, March 6, 2014

I am so in love with my self-indulgent writing on this blog off late! 
I remember writing parts of this before. But I feel like saying this (again) now: "A silent overwhelm" but add two more words to make it: "A silent and pleasant overwhelm."
Statement 1: I need more life-defining moments in my life!
Statement 2: I think I'm closer to more life-defining moments in my life!

Sunday, March 2, 2014

I used to be a person of few words!


It's like this heart is waiting for a picture perfect moment that will make it beat faster or slower and even make it stop.

Monday, February 24, 2014


For the countless beautiful moments in life that only the eyes of my/your/our mind can capture.

Say it, do it!

Sunday, February 23, 2014

It never can be love or hate if it wears out. It's a part of self-discovery.

Friday, February 21, 2014

Ragged feeling. Like nothing really matters.

And yet, there are certain things in life that leave behind scars. Serving as painful reminders of mistakes from the past.

I wish I had an endless supply of Benson & Hedges to smoke the hell out of my mind for the rest of this night along with all the silence I can muster.

And: I like Benson & Hedges for the name and nothing really else.

And after the templated coaching, you're going to know when exactly someone is using which cue and you'll automatically be bored. There's going to be #nothingdifferent about life or humans then.

Tuesday, February 18, 2014


Do I want to be with people who typically smoke in a group but one fine day you notice they come out to smoke alone, too? And be with them in those moments over other chaotic ones so more meaningful conversations can be had?

Thursday, February 13, 2014

How hard is it to forgive, man? How easy is it to give up, woman?


Point of no return.
Sometimes, all the noise on a Facebook post and all the silence in the world is not enough.

Monday, February 10, 2014

The presence of absence :)

Monday, February 3, 2014

Edutha, edutha idathilaiye vekkanumnu yaarum sollikudukkalaiya?
#conversations #brother
Ul urruthal.

"Nilaavilae paarttha vannam,Kannaavilae thoandrum innum"
"Mouname parvaiyal oru paatu paada vendum
naaname jaadayal oru varthai pesa vendum"
"Mounamae paarvaiyaay paesi kondoam,
Naanamae vaNNamaay poosi kondoam"
Pursed lips
welcome words
meant to be unsaid.

Yaar arria? Yaar purindukolla? 

Thursday, January 30, 2014

I fall in love so easily
And struggle to fall out


apart and apart
are falling apart?
apart from Falling Apart?

Monday, January 27, 2014

Tonight I want to write an ode to the Sea and the Moon. Perhaps I won't because this body and mind of mine is quite worn out this night and no purpose seems worth a pursuit.

I have no idea where I am, what I am doing, or why. Okay, may be I do literally (typing this post on my phone on the way back home because this thought occurred to me) but not quite metaphorically.

We crave,
Explicitly or secretly,
For an acknowledgement
Of what we say
And what we don't.

We're human, we make mistakes, we learn.
And when we read something interesting,
We sometimes want to save it
for a breakfast table conversation
Or some such
But eventually don't.

Friday, January 24, 2014

I want to claim Master status in the #artoffakingit. It doesn't refer to anything carnal. There. Did I plant a silly thought in your mind? Good. #missionaccomplished

Why do I find myself drawn to a certain craziness in some people :|?
The rest aren't worth a thought anyway.
But. Ugh. It's too obvious a pattern and I (secretly don't) wish I don't fall for it again.

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Come on, show me what else you've got, World. Surprise me.

Monday, January 20, 2014

So easy to get by.

Not having a shadow of yourself.  Will you miss it?

Friday, January 17, 2014

Ugh. People. People, people, people.

And even if the world crumbles,
seas wash cities and towns,
fires engulf every landscape,
the skies stop bearing rain,
currents take the air I breathe away,

my hopes and aspirations
will remain
steady and strong.

I realised on a cab ride to work that the only flower I pretty much truly like and appreciate is the Bougainvillea. They're so light and beautiful with no strong scent.

Monday, January 13, 2014

Oh, photographer,
Stop your pretense.
You had no idea you would
Get that beautiful picture
When you clicked.

Neither did you forsee
That bad composition
You so promptly deleted
From your
Without a trace.

Making it seem
Like nothing was ever
Without your expectation
Of perfection.

Thursday, January 9, 2014

It's so easy for me to mirror someone I like with my thoughts, speech, and emotions! #whattodo

Monday, January 6, 2014

But heck. I'm too tired of being worked up to the point that it seems so meaningless to be so. I am getting back my silence and my peace, though. It's definitely warmer and stronger.

I miss my own silence.

Tuesday, December 31, 2013

My eyes bleed 'tired.' :-( I need another vacation. Soon.

Monday, December 30, 2013

Jun 22, 2007
Helmetinthes. Nihilistically so. Altruistically nihilistic. Selfishly altruistic. And it whirls, one idea chasing the other, in quite a remarkably circular path. Does it help that I understand the locii? :|

Aug 16, 2007
El mar.

Jun 26, 2008
Bad reduction formula. Why? Because: Epistemological Fallacy = Meta-epistemological Tautology.

Fuckin pseud.


Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Oh, what should be gathered now?
Times gone can never be back?
When people repeatedly falter
they can never bounce back?
Silence will not help?
No, don't hum the lyric
when you're playing
your game of chess
with a computer
and taking a break.

Don't you see
it can cause
a certain heart
to be wrung
just as
the unplugged version of
Isaiyil Thodangudamma

Monday, December 9, 2013

Stray, starry-eyed Boddha
As the rays of a full moon
Paint the waves of a land and time
So far.

Sunday, December 8, 2013

And as I try swimming through the everydays, moments from yore count for precious little breaths. It's not as if they're never again to be.

There will be time
Time again.

Thursday, December 5, 2013

And I shall live to see a thousand splendid full moons.

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

Cold days.

Friday, November 29, 2013

I am such a crab.

Thursday, November 28, 2013

Who are we?

Inebriated souls
Waiting for the other
To make a move.

Sunday, November 24, 2013

How do you survive in the midst of people who genuinely don't follow the fine aspects of any form of art that's close to you and ask if you're drunk when you talk or write about it?
(In short, those who lack quality ilakiya, oviya and isai rasanai.)
Well, you put up with it, I suppose.

And I see but
Shadows of people
That I don't seem to understand
And all I want to say is:
Get back to your old, old self.
(Well, it holds good for me too!)

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Lesson of the day

If irritated with unwarranted comments, sugar coats, and with ones that are myopic, or critics because they want to be:

Let the steam off.
Count backwards from whichever one you want.
Tell yourself that nothing or no one is worth it for however many times you want.
Try not to swear whenever possible. Sometimes though, this might help:

Die. Just please die.

Did you feel me mentally kicking you out of my life? Boy, can you be irritating!"

Monday, November 11, 2013


Nothing else inspires as much
at 0330 in the AM:
When nightfall wears out
And a gleam of hope reigns.

I could wake up
Every passing day at this hour
And not feel any less inspired.

Sunday, November 10, 2013

What am I?

In a bad way before,
Good way now.

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Everyday rhythm:
Moments within moments,
Tied to an eternal
Leap of faith.

Whither drifts the raft,
Thither goes the soils of life
And the soul of eyes,
Wispy and tardy.

Not for too long, friend.

#JustInTime #dedication

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

What would you do?

"For the other half of the sky?"

Thursday, October 31, 2013

memories, fond.
go, let alone.

Monday, October 28, 2013

It's going to be harder
for me to find you
among Them.

Sunday, October 27, 2013

Nothing is as close to two people who don't say a word to eachother for the longest time,and yet don't feel as awkward and act as strangers would.


Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Is it so hard
To think in negatives.
Than it is to
Prepare for the worst of storms.

Thursday, October 17, 2013


When numbers fail,
Candles melt.

Monday, October 14, 2013

The Corporate blood
Leads course:
It runs through veins
takes over dear,
dear words,
masks expression
like a trap

But then,
the open sky
and sea
aren't far away,
are they?

Just as dainty candlesticks
That cast their shadow
On the warm, heavy
unused Furniture
by the fireplace,
So will one life

Thursday, October 10, 2013

Do I have to have a strong opinion?
Do I have to know how to pronounce crepe?
Do I have to express myself
my love, angst, and emptiness?

Well, then,

Look into my eyes.

Days, people, time
And me

Trying to make sense.

Thursday, September 12, 2013

Like a beautiful unfinished pot
That's broken.

Monday, September 2, 2013


Pollen against the grain.

Friday, August 30, 2013

I wrote
Your name,
By the beach
Of a land so plain,
And it still remains.

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Why ask for an opinion when you know you're not going to go by it?

Friday, August 23, 2013

When names
And faces
As strangers.

Thursday, August 22, 2013

A penrose wish:
Movies I love never end
And some of my dreams are easy to realize.

Sometimes I don't know what else to say but that I miss you and I miss us.
- a someone

Friday, August 16, 2013

Some Feynman for the soul.

Sunday, August 11, 2013

It’s in my head.
In my arteries and veins.